Wow so talk about a long time of not writing in a journal of any kinda. haha. The last time I even made an entry was in September. lol ... I have neglected my xanga, what can I say? Myspace and Facebook have truely taken over my meaningless internet life. A lot has happened since I moved away from home and became an offical COLLEGE STUDENT. What all has happened you ask? Well dang it I'll tell you:

1. I've met a lot of interesting people ... and not their not all bible majors
2. I went through a phase where I was shady with all my friends back home because I couldn't balance my school life with my home life.
3. I almost lost my best friend because I hadn't been completely honest with her.
4. I became an athletic trainer for the football team.
5. My football team made it to the first round of playoffs but got cheated (literally) out of advancing.
6. I was able to come home for Thanksgiving and see my family which was all too amazing to be surrounded by the people that love me the most.
7. I drove back to Keller to see Bri and her and I made scrapebooks for each other.
8. I met a boy (he goes to UNT)
9. I've been able to give people advice and actually am proud when they take it.
10. I had a psychotic roommate
11. Now I have an awesome roommate who burps and farts like a dude!
12. I realize now how much family really means to me, being away from them this long.
13. I love the block scheduling ... 2 classes three times a week; 3 classes two times a week.
14. I've realized that even though I'm not comfortable with it I still have to put a little bit of trust into someone before I really get to know them.
15. I've learned how to be more honest and up-front than I ever have been; but this time in a good way.
16. I've learned to cherish the frienships you've got because once their gone ... their gone.

complications

... there's a guy im friends with and we've established that we're just friends, but im beginning to think he thinks that i think that we're trying to be something more. and im not. i just want a simple friendship with a guy without the whole "what are we" question, or the awkwardness that happens all the time! is it so hard to be granted even that one thing?

When You Thought I Wasn't Looking
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When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw you hang my first painting on the fridge,
and I immediately wanted to paint another one!

When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw you feed a stray cat and I learned that it was good to be
kind to animals!

When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw you make my favorite cake for me, and I learned that the
little things can be the special things in life!

When you thought I wasn't looking,
I heard you say a prayer, and I knew there was a GOD I could
always talk to and I learned to trust in GOD

When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw you make a meal and take it to a friend who was sick,
and I learned that we all have to help take care of each other

When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw you give of your time and money to help people who had
nothing, and I learned that those who had something should give
to those who don't!

When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw you take care of our house and everyone in it,
and I learned we have to take care of what we are given!

When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw how you handle your responsibilities even though you
didn't feel good, and I learned that I would have to be
responsible when I grew up!

When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw tears come from your eyes, and I learned that sometimes
things hurt, and it's ok to cry!

When you thought I wasn't looking,
I saw that you cared, and I wanted to be everything that I could
be!

When you thought I wasn't looking,
I learned most of life’s lessons that I needed to know to be a
good and protective person when I grew up!

When you thought I wasn't looking,
I looked at you and wanted to say, "Thanks for all the things I
saw when you thought I wasn't looking!"

~Author Unknown~

**Dedicated to everyone who has ever impacted my life. Thanks.